So Much To Tell

Music: The Way You Make Me Feel by Michael Jackson

Where to begin! I’ve graduated. But not officially. I’m going to pass all my classes. I had a scare about one of them on Saturday night, and was freaking out internally about it all Sunday. I graduated on Sunday. I wasn’t feeling very excited about the actual cerimony, but then being there and seeing everyone, it felt good to be part of it all. It’s an achievement to finish college. Only 24 percent of the U.S. population gets a college education. The figure drops to 6 percent for a master’s. I think one of the best moments was when we got a standing ovation. It was totally unexpected, and it really made my heart melt to know that there were people out there who were proud of me. I’ve felt so insignificant academically this semester that this was truly meaningful. I didn’t tear up, but I did feel overwhelmed a bit by the sense of community and love. I think the best moment though might have been when we processed out, and the professors were standing on either side and cheering us on. It was a poinent moment because as freshmen they had done the same thing after the first convo. A nice way to bookend our college experience. A close second in best moments of grad was right as I was about to leave the gym in the procession, I saw my high school choir director and was so shocked that I jumped out of line and gave him a big hug. It was a wonderful surprise and I was able to talk to him for a bit later on. This also meant that I ended up processing out past the faculty with Jess 🙂 Which was also a nice touch. So third best moment would have to be actually walking across stage. And then I had an open house with apartment 403 girls. Most of my extended family in the area came, and that was really cool. We cut out early so that mom, dad, Andre’ and Dancy could go see Lenora. Oh, that’s right, Andre’ and Dancy arrived late Saturday night. It was great to see them. It was sad that they could only really be here for a day, but they got to see the new little one, so that’s good. I wasn’t able to go down to Kendallville because I had too much to get done so that I could actually graduate, and that was one of the saddest things about my academic performance this semester. That my procrastination and inability to motivate myself had made it so that I couldn’t see my nephew on the first day of his life. 😦
But I got both papers in on time that I need to do by noon the next day. All and all, Sunday was one of the most stressful days of my life. Between wondering how I’d pass the class I was worried about, and anxiousness about Lenora, and feeling pulled in so many directions emotionally. It was hard to stay sane and not lose it completely. I’m better now.
But I got to see him today! Shemaya was born around 6 on Sunday April 23rd. He weighed about 6 pounds 7 ounces, and has a full head of black, silky hair, beautiful dark skin, and dark brown eyes. He’s beautiful. Alot of times newborns are bald blotchy and kind of ugly. Not Shem. He’s already gorgeous. Mike and I drove down to the hospital and spent about an hour visiting with Lenora and Tobias and holding Shem. He feels so light! He’s lost a little weight which I guess is normal, and he sleeps all the time. Thank you God for a new life.
Last night I went to Olive Garden with Fallon and Crystal. It was amazing to have that girl time. I love those two. I really hope i stay in contact with them. And that’s about it for now. Classes in the morning. I’m actually sort of looking forward to it, but I could use another day or two to actually finish up with my spring semester before I start May term. Se La Vie. Wan An.

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