Music: Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer
So the weekend was interesting. Lots of little kids. Trying to communicate with all of them when some can’t hear and others can’t sign. Very interesting. How do you discipline or lay down rules properly that way!? But hey, I got $25 and possibly a month long job this summer taking care of 5 kids in Jamaica. Getting paid to spend a month in Jamaica! Sounds good to me š
So I’m not really doing all that well right now……I’m struggling with my classes and realizing that I don’t have the ASL competency to do well in my Interpreting classes. The only way to gain it is through immersion type experiences, but I don’t have very good access to those and I just don’t have time with how I live to do them. I also just don’t use my time well. I…… well, I’m just going through a rough spot right now I guess. I don’t like being so depressing (I generally think of myself as a happy person) and I don’t think that I have things worse than other, I’m just struggling. I think the worst part is that I have this idea that if I was just a better person I could handle this stuff. And then people tell me how strong I am or what a good person I am, and I just can’t bring myself to believe it. Maybe I shouldn’t be writing this, but…… I hate how I’ve been feeling the last few weeks, and this is not an uncommon experience, I think it happens every semester just about now. I’m just not mature enough, or dedicated enough or strong enough or disciplined enough……
I’m starting to consider doing an interdisciplinary degree instead of interpreting…. hummm…. is that giving up, or picking the better option? I’ve never really felt a huge drive to be an interpreter. I want to work with ASL, and I want to work with Deaf people and I want to make a difference, but I’ve never really felt this big need to be an interpreter. I get excited when I see a really good interpretation, but I think that’s more on the linguistic level.
Lady In Green 
Hi Steph,
Well, I finally went to your blog and read what you had to say. I could see the interdiciplinary major working well for you, what would the other two focuses be? Tesol, music, theater? I don’t know if I’d say go one way or the other right now, but I will say that I’m sorry these last few weeks have been downers and that you’re making some disappointing/hard discoveries about the interpreting major. I love you, and don’t beat up on yourself or else I’ll steal your slippers. Yup, you better watch it. But really, just know that how you are as a student does not determine how good a person you are, how much you care, how much we care, what life after college will be like….anyway, remember above all to “Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim. I love to swim…” Ok, that’s all I can’t recall anymore and Becca says it sounds right and can’t think of anymore of either. By the way, I’m not anonymous, I’m Jess:)
Hi Steph,
Well, I finally went to your blog and read what you had to say. I could see the interdiciplinary major working well for you, what would the other two focuses be? Tesol, music, theater? I don’t know if I’d say go one way or the other right now, but I will say that I’m sorry these last few weeks have been downers and that you’re making some disappointing/hard discoveries about the interpreting major. I love you, and don’t beat up on yourself or else I’ll steal your slippers. Yup, you better watch it. But really, just know that how you are as a student does not determine how good a person you are, how much you care, how much we care, what life after college will be like….anyway, remember above all to “Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim. I love to swim…” Ok, that’s all I can’t recall anymore and Becca says it sounds right and can’t think of anymore of either. By the way, I’m not anonymous, I’m Jess:)
Oooh, a month in Jamaica…that sounds like an incredible time. And if you’re watching kids that you like, it’ll be even more fun š I’m jealous! š ps-where’d your pic and stuff go?