to be alone

Mike has been gone all week.  He’s enjoying himself at ACTF which is fabulous, and I’ve had a good (intense for various reasons) week.  One thing I realized though is that I’m out of practice with enjoying spending time on my own.  I don’t think it’ll be something that ever comes naturally to me.  I used to think that if I worked on it enough I’d develop the skill and retain in.  Near the end of college and in Evanston, I was getting pretty good at it.  But it’s a skill that I can loss.  And I have lost it.