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My old Employers cut me off early. After they had practically insisted that I request an extension on my start date with my new family they told me not to come back on Monday. They also had some other choice things to say about me: I’m hiding behind my values, I’m deceitful, I’m judgmental, I’m hostile, etc, etc. I’m so glad I’m done with that family. I’m sad to be leaving the boys, but it was not a healthy situation for me. They wouldn’t even let me say goodbye to the boys. I just had to leave.
The silver lining in this whole hurtful situation was that on Friday night my transmission went out, so now I have some time off work to figure out what I’m going to do. My dad is going to take me car shopping tomorrow. I’m not exactly sure that I want to make this kind of financial commitment right now, but it’s hard to imagine our apartment not having a car and my other one is worth something as a trade in. So I’m going to be in Goshen for the next few days.
Thanksgiving was fabulous. I single handedly peeled 20 pounds of potatoes which turns out is about twice as much as you need for 16 people, especially if you also have sweet potatoes, a giant veggi plater, stuffing, pickles and olives, crescent rolls, green bean casserole, deviled eggs, cranberry sauce, Charletta’s grandmother’s fluff and four pies. I also made mulled wine in the evening which I had never made or tasted before, but others who have said it turned out well. I really liked it. I’ll have to make some at Christmas time as well.
And last but not least, Mike and I are doing fabulously. Sometimes there’s a little piece of me that gets really afraid that I’m missing something, or that somehow this whole relationship is going to disintegrate. I miss him alot after about a week of not seeing him, and by the end of the second week I get a little crazy, but it seems like every time I see him I’m more certain that I’ve found someone that I can be wholly myself and he can be wholly himself and we can make each other happy.
I’m not going to try to do an update. There’s just too much to say. I have a new job. I have 6 more days with Anthony and Jordan. I’m ready to move on. It’s hard though.
Beginning in January I’ll be taking care of two little girls. Liz is 5 months old and Rose is 3 1/2 months. I’ll be taking care of them atLiz’s house, and Liz’s mom works from home, so I won’t be totally alone if things fall apart for some reason. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. It’s going to be a big challenge. It’ll be like raising twins that are at slightly different developmental stages. Both girls are darling. Blond hair and blue eyes. They look almost like they could be sisters. They don’t look a thing like me, so it’ll be funny when people think they’re mine. I got that with the boys too, and it’s much more believable that I have an infant than a 4 year old, although I think when I have both girls, people will realize that I couldn’t be the mother of both unless I had a double uterus or something strange like that.
I spent the day in my pjs. Such a lazy day. I should have gone for a walk, but I did some hand washing and cleaned up in my room instead. The girls and I made pizza sandwiches and watched about 45 minutes of The New World before we decided that we were so bored with it that we didn’t want to watch it anymore. We’ve got a busy week ahead of us. We’re going to have between 14 and 16 people for Thanksgiving dinner and then 4 more for dessert. It’ll be pretty crazy, but fun. Then off to Goshen for the weekend. Thanksgiving with Mike’s family on Friday, and a refresher on infant care with my mom down at my sister’s.
Life’s slipping away so fast. I want to speed it up and slow it down at the same time. Mostly, right now I’m just happy. There are always things I’d change about my life if I could, but I’m starting to be able to see that not changing those things is ok, but changing one or two is possible. One step at a time. One step at a time.
