Bush could take some advice from one of his predecessors

“Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies, in the final sense, a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and are not clothed. This world in arms is not spending money alone. It is spending the sweat of its laborers, the genius of its scientists, the hopes of its children . . . Under the cloud of threatening war, it is humanity hanging from a cross of iron.”

– Dwight D Eisenhower

Summer

Music: Can You Feel the Love Tonight

Summer is officially here in my opinion. It’s hot! Ummm… I love it. I’m sitting in the kitchen cooking Moroccan food for supper. It’s been a good start of the summer, if a bit boring at times. I don’t have alot I have to be doing, so it’s somewhat hard to motivate myself to do the things I should be doing. But I’ve been on the job hunt in Evanston, I’ve almost finished Shemaya’s blanket, I’ve spent time with my family and friends (and mike , and I’ve been working a little at the Bluegill. It’s just so nice not to have a bunch of stuff hanging over my head. I’m alot happier without all the stress. I’ve been in some weird moods lately though. I think it’s a combination of people leaving, having such a dramatic shift in my schedule, feeling a bit uncertain about this new stage of life, and just generally things are CHANGING. I should be used to that, but it’s still put me in an apprehensive mood. I think one of the things that concerns me the most is that I wonder how well I’ll do having a full time job. Will I be responsible about it? I’d like to think so, we’ll see.
Today was Shemaya’s dedication. I love my family. I love spending time with them. I know I’ve said that alot, but it never ceases to make me really happy and thankful. Yeah for new life. And now back to the food. Have a great summer everyone.

Leaving Goshen College

Music: 5/4 Here We Go by Dispatch

It’s a beautiful day. In many ways. The sun is shining. I just finished my last final in my undergraduate degree (I’ll still have tests for the two classes I’m taking this summer, but no finals). My last official classroom type class at Goshen is done. So weird. I feel really strange about that. Glad, but sad. And strangely a bit ambivalent. I mean… it was good, but now it’s over. That’s how life works. On to the next thing. Life is one string of changes. You learn to adapt. You learn to let go. You learn to anticipate the next step. You learn to find joy in what is, look forward to what will be, and be glad for what was.

Enough philosophy. Ummmm… I’m going to see Wicked again Jenn wanted to give me something for grad/birthday. It’s too bad we didn’t think about it before she came, or we might have been able to work it out so that we could see it together. Although, there probably wouldn’t have been tickets anymore on the days that we would have been able to go. My internship doesn’t start up until June 10!!!! So I have some to relax without anything to worry about except working at the Bluegill. I hope I get enough hours there this summer. I need to earn some money. My internship with Elkart will be June 10-30 and then I’m at Goshen from July 10- Aug. 4 then I might move up to Chicago, or I might stay here. It depends on if I get a job that wants me to start soon. I think I’d rather stay here and wait to start a new job till September. I keep going back and forth about whether I’d rather be a nanny or an interpreter coordinator.

Yeah for summer. Yeah for school being done. Yeah for wonderful people in my life who make it all worthwhile.

Because I was recently chastized for not blogging recently ;)….

Music: Mo ve’la bella mia da la Muntagna from Big Night

……or more because I’m procrastinating. It’s 1:00. I have a big final tomorrow that I’m going to do crappily on But I should pass the class. I really really hope I do anyways, I’d be surprised if I didn’t. I’d have to really really fail the exam. Which, depending on which questions he asks, I might.

My rash won’t go away! GRRRRRRR….. so sick of it.

Today was the final game for intramural ultimate frisbee. Because of some drama between the teams, it didn’t go so well, but technically my team won. In the “season” we only lost one game, so I really think we deserved it, but I was sad that there was conflict with something that was supposed to be just for fun. I played really poorly. I’m starting to think that it was a mistake to sign up for summer league. I felt like I was doing ok earlier, but today I touched the frisbee once (my cut was nice) but I dropped the frisbee as I slipped and fell on the wet grass. sign…. so pitiful.

Saw Honk! twice. It was good, especially for a 3 week production time. I thought Jessica was superbly cast, and did an excellent job. Miriam makes a beautiful and graceful swan, and Becca was the cutest duckling. The harmony on most of the songs was great. Overall, I was impressed And it was downright fun.

Ok, back to the studying. No more distracting myself.

ummm… :)

Music: More than Words by Eric Clapton

Ok, I know I’m lame and haven’t written a real post in a while, but whatever. I’ve been sick. Actually, I’ve been really sick for the past couple days. Head cold. Ick, and this really annoying rash that dad thinks is a viral rash called something or other. I’ll have to get the name from him. It’s not too itchy, but it spread like wildfire and looks pretty bad. May term class is going ok, but I’ve been missing class because of my sickness, so that doesn’t bode well for the final. Jenn comes on Saturday!!!! By the way, I know this is a really big request, but is anyone willing to pick her up from the airport on Saturday evening. I’ll pay gas, and you can even use my car. Sigh, I thought that my dad could do it, but my mom needs his help around the house. Let me know if you’re interested in a free trip to Chicago. I went and visited Lenora and Shemaya on Saturday. He’s so tiny and cute. I really enjoyed holding him and talking to Lenora and helping her finish the baby room (which looks amazing). I made nshima (ugali, sadza) with cooked greens and groundnut stew. I hadn’t had African food in a while so that was cool. I’m looking forward to visiting alot this summer. I also got to see Jenica’s track meet last week and Winston’s Tae Kwon Do class. She didn’t place, but she ran well, and this week she almost won the 400 meter, but was passed at the last minute. Winston got his yellow belt. It’s amazing having family around.

Mike and I almost broke up. I’ll tell you the story if you ask me. I’d write it here, but I’d rather tell in person. But it’s significant to me, so I thought I’d mention it. Almost is the operative word here. And I’m really glad. I’d like to see where this relationship might go. He’s a really unique individual. I mean, I guess everyone is, but I of what I know so far, I didn’t realize someone could fit me this well. It makes me realize how much in the past I told myself that I’d have to compromise alot because there just wasn’t someone who was going to see things the way I do, and be interested in me, and I in him, etc etc. I realize that it’s early, and I realize that the long distance thing might not work, and I realize that I tend to fall fast and hard and maybe not with enough evaluation of the relationship, but I feel really comfortable with this relationship, and am looking forward to taking things as they come.

I always get a kick out of these things

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 80% Stability |||||||||||||||| 70% Orderliness |||||||||| 33% Accommodation |||||||||||||| 56% Interdependence |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Intellectual |||||||||||| 50% Mystical |||||||||||| 50% Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56% Materialism |||||| 23% Narcissism |||||||||| 36% Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 63% Work ethic |||||||||| 36% Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 70% Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 50% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43% Romantic |||||||||||||||| 70% Avoidant || 10% Anti-authority |||||||||||||| 56% Wealth |||||||||| 36% Dependency |||||||||||| 50% Change averse |||||| 23% Cautiousness |||||||||||| 43% Individuality |||||||||||| 50% Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Peter pan complex |||||| 23% Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||| 70% Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56% Paranoia |||||| 30% Vanity |||||||||||||||| 63% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||| 50% Female cliche |||||||||||||| 56%

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Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture

A pleasant sleep deprived day

Music: Ten Mile Stilts by Wailin’ Jennys

It’s a blessing when a friend that’s most likely to be concerned reassures you that you’re not crazy.

More news soon, I just don’t have the energy now.