wedding cakes, stuff, and finding a job

still no job…. it’s so depressing. I didn’t go around and apply places today like I was planning, instead Becca and I spent part of the morning and early afternoon finding cake pans and then Abby came over and we experimented with trying to make rolled fondant icing which was a complete disaster, but I don’t think I had the right recipe. Now this evening I’m working on my stuff more, I’m seeing the end of my stuff from school, but I still have other stuff that I had packed away that I want to get out and consolidate with the stuff that I have out, so I’m not seeing the end of the project yet. Abby Gould and Anna Moran, a couple girl friends from H.S. might be coming on Wednesday so exciting. I hope they do. It’s been frustrating moving back home and trying to get along with my mom again. It seems almost as if no matter what I do, something’s wrong with what I’m doing. Oh well….. back to the sorting.

So many life decisions

Music: The prayer by Charlotte Church and Josh Gorban

I’ve been thinking alot lately about what reasons we use to make those big life decisions. I remember when I was deciding if I was going to come to Goshen or stay in Oregon, there wasn’t really a pros and cons check list….. more like a feeling. I did go through different pros and cons, but that wasn’t the main basis for the decision, it just helped me find that feeling… that feeling of rightness. That doesn’t mean I didn’t question it, or wonder if I was doing the right thing, or stop me from being completely scared about my decision. I think I tend to make my big decisions that way. Like my latest one, Jesse and I are getting married next summer instead of in two years.

Oh, and I still don’t have a job But the last two days have been very very good. Thursday morning was spent in a frenzy of trying to get Abby, Meryl and myself out of the dorms, then we went to see Star Wars (fun, very fun) and then hung out at Jesse’s in the evening. Yesterday I spent mostly at home working on my stuff, but also went to lunch with my mom and Jesse, and then went to the school to talk to financial aid, and check about job stuff, and then I came back and went into town and applied at a couple places. Then in the evening I went to Jesse’s and we had a long talk about the next couple years, and we talked to his parents about it too. And at the end of the night we made our decision. There are alot of things going into it, but mostly my realization that going to Chicago might not be the best idea. I was really concerned about being able to get a job for less than a year, and some of my reasons for going were starting to die. Anyways, I’m happy with our decision, if not a bit scared about it. That means wedding plans will have to move on alot more quickly than I thought, especially because I’m going to be gone all fall semester. But at least it’s not the spring that I’m going to be gone . Anywho, today I’m going canoeing with Jesse and his parents! yeah! Have a good summer every one.

Last day of Chinese

Music: none

Chinese is over, may term is over, my junior year is over. And now I’m facing moving all my crap home for the summer which is going to be no small task. Then I’m going to have to face the fact that I have no job….no job! sigh…. It’s not like I waited forever to start looking, my biggest problem was that I thought for once I could find a job that I enjoyed. Big mistake. Now phys plant’s not even looking for anyone anymore. I’m in such a mess. I need to make some money so that I can pay my parents back, and have money for China and start saving for all the stuff I’m going to be doing in the next few years, like getting an apartment in Chicago, getting married, going on a honeymoon, finding somewhere to live, and hopefully a house as soon as possible.
Tomorrow a bunch of us are going to see Star Wars. We were going to see it tonight, but it was all sold out. Then after that Jesse and I and maybe a few others are going Latin dancing at the Landing. That should be fun….I hope. Alright, that’s all for now.

Too Much stuff

Why do I have so much stuff! It’s too much. My parent might be moving soon… I really don’t know at this point, but thinking that it’s better to be prepared and not have to deal with a move than to have to throw everything together at the last min. and as a way to try and simplify my life a little, I’ve been going through all my belongings, starting with the stuff I have stored at home, and deciding what to do with it and trying to pack it in a better way. On of those big “bread” trucks just pulled up to the entrance of Kratz and honked it’s horn…. how weird. anyways, I wish I didn’t have so much stuff, but then again most of it is stuff that I hope to eventually use, I just can’t use it now. Stuff like crafty things and table linens and books that I’ll want later, but don’t have time to read now, or I want to keep around for my kids, like my entire set of Anne of Green Gables (even when she’s all grown up

So I got up fairly early this morning. I’m actually starting to enjoy the May term schedule of early rising, I only need to get the early to bed down more now….. ok, that truck just did a lap around the Miller/Kratz drive… so weird….. there it goes again! what the heck……. ok, back to my day. I went home and spent the morning and a fair amount of the afternoon working on sorting. Then Jesse and I cooked dinner together and had my parents over to his house. It was cool to get our families together. Our parents had meet briefly before, but only once at Christmas time. And now it’s time for bed. Night all.

Wedding stuff

Music: Saucy Salior by the Wailin’ Jennys

I bought a wedding dress!!!!!! ok, before you say “WHAT it’s two years away” let me explain. The dress was part of the 99$ sale at David’s Bridal because it was an experimental dress that they discontinued and came out a new more embellished version. It was originally $300. And, I can return it for an exchange at any time (until after I wear it of course). So there’s pretty much no risk, and I love it. It fits me so well… bodily and in my personality. It’s simple and elegant with a little bit of flavor. So yeah

Chinese is hard. And I feel like I’m falling further and further behind. But I will preserver. And on that note I’m going to go study. Night all.

Just time enough to relax

Music: Nightingale by Nora Jones

May term is upon us. I’m studying Chinese which is decidedly difficult, but I really want to do well. I’m really looking forward to China. I’m also hoping that I get a job that I’ll enjoy this summer. Right now that’s really up in the air.

But today I:

Was rudely awakened at 8:30 by my mother after being up late the night before playing WoW and then slept for a little longer. After I did wake up a spent time setting up an appointment to get a passport and figuring out what I was going to do today. Then I played a little more WoW and had a long conversation with my friend Abby from Oregon. It was really nice to catch up with her. It’s hard to keep up friendships with people you don’t see on a regular basis, let alone like one a year if that. I’m glad there are a few people from my past that have put the effort in. Then I watched like 4 hours of Manor House which is a PBS reality series where are group of people take on the role of a household just after the turn of the century in England. Life was so hard for servants back then! Then supper and a couple hours of work in the coffee shop, and then cards with a group of friends. Overall it’s been the relaxing day it needed to be. But I should have been in bed about 2 hours ago. So good night all.