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Music: Everything’s Alright from Jesus Christ Superstar
So I haven’t blogged in LONG time. I don’t know, I just didn’t have the motivation…..that and Jesse got me hooked on a computer game called World of Warcraft. But I’m not playing it anymore, I deleted it! yeah for me.
I’m sick, mad at myself for failing to improve my bad habits (procratination, poor sleeping and eating habits, etc) so yeah, happiness. I mean, life is really good in the sense that I have everything I need, a wonderful man who loves me, amazing friends who accept me faults and all, so why do I feel like the world’s out to get me? Maybe I’ll take the time to write happy things later. But at least I blogged. It’s a start.
Music: None, Jessica my prospective is sleeping…..shhhhhhh 
explanation of title…… think another name for Bush 
So Bush won……. tears, sadness, woe….. ‘nough said
Jesse and I were in the the Elkhart Truth 
Hopefully it wont be the last time we’re pictured together in the newspaper Ummm…… I’m still working too much. I went to the play tonight. Really good. Anna did an excellent job. Very interesting story, very sad.
So here’s the biggest news with me right now. I think I’m going to be an Interdisciplinary major with focuses in ASL, TESOL, and Sociology/Anthropology. I’m excited about this and scared about this. I’m morning the lose of security post grad, but glad that I feel like this is the best fit for me right now. And I can always come back and finish up with ASL. Well….. I can try. See the biggest problem that I’m beginning to face is the fact that I have a fairly slow processing time. This may be something that I can train to be faster at, but it’s also possible that I’ll never be fast enough, and just don’t have the ability to be an interpreter. Although there are still things that I could do within the interpreting field most likely, like interpreting for plays that I have memorized etc. Things that I don’t have to process how to interpret in the moment. While I realize that I’m making an informed decision and that one of the biggest reasons for the decision is this thing that I cannot really control, it still feels kind of like failing, like giving up, like just one more thing that I couldn’t do just because I didn’t try hard enough, didn’t give enough energy too. But I have hope that this is the right decision and well….. I just pray that it’s the right
Music: Ada plays from Cold Mountain
It can be very inspiring to watch my plants grow. Ever so slowly, but I see progress and discover new shoots everyday And they’re not dying which is amazing with the fact that I really have no green thumb what so ever, I think it might even be slightly black Life is…… right now in this moment life is good, I have wonderful friends, a warm room, an incredible man who loves me, more food than what’s good for me, and direct access to the ultimate power of the universe. You know that last on is really the most amazing, but the one I think I take the most for granted, or at least capitalize on the least. Humm… something to work on. I felt really beautiful today That’s always a nice thing. Oh! and I voted for the first time. Exciting. Please, Kerry win. Please, please, please, please. Sigh, Bush for another 4 years might be more than I can handle. At least I’m going to be in China next year. Wonder what they think of him over there. Probably hate him like the rest of the world. Sigh.
Music: Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer
So the weekend was interesting. Lots of little kids. Trying to communicate with all of them when some can’t hear and others can’t sign. Very interesting. How do you discipline or lay down rules properly that way!? But hey, I got $25 and possibly a month long job this summer taking care of 5 kids in Jamaica. Getting paid to spend a month in Jamaica! Sounds good to me
So I’m not really doing all that well right now……I’m struggling with my classes and realizing that I don’t have the ASL competency to do well in my Interpreting classes. The only way to gain it is through immersion type experiences, but I don’t have very good access to those and I just don’t have time with how I live to do them. I also just don’t use my time well. I…… well, I’m just going through a rough spot right now I guess. I don’t like being so depressing (I generally think of myself as a happy person) and I don’t think that I have things worse than other, I’m just struggling. I think the worst part is that I have this idea that if I was just a better person I could handle this stuff. And then people tell me how strong I am or what a good person I am, and I just can’t bring myself to believe it. Maybe I shouldn’t be writing this, but…… I hate how I’ve been feeling the last few weeks, and this is not an uncommon experience, I think it happens every semester just about now. I’m just not mature enough, or dedicated enough or strong enough or disciplined enough……
I’m starting to consider doing an interdisciplinary degree instead of interpreting…. hummm…. is that giving up, or picking the better option? I’ve never really felt a huge drive to be an interpreter. I want to work with ASL, and I want to work with Deaf people and I want to make a difference, but I’ve never really felt this big need to be an interpreter. I get excited when I see a really good interpretation, but I think that’s more on the linguistic level.
