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Some things are more important than sleep, but some things never would happen if I slept more. hummm….. will I ever do it right? Am I even getting better?
“In life, there are only two things to worry about, either you are well, or you are sick. If you are well, there is nothing to worry about, but if you are sick, you have two things to worry about; either you will live, or you will die. If you live, there is nothing to worry about, if you die, you have two things to worry about; either you will go to heaven or to hell. If you go to heaven, there is nothing to worry about, but if you go to hell, you’ll be so busy shaking hands with your friends, you won’t have time to worry!”
Music: saucy Sailor by the Wailin’ Jennys 
hehe, I really like this song!
hummm….. the coffee shop was really busy. It was nice to be home for just a bit today. I really think I should do an hour after, except that….. eh, it probably wont happen. I’m really frustrated with the fact that I think about going over to the music center every day to practice, but how? I can’t even plunk out a simple melody! I’m not kidding. I mean I can warm up my voice and work on vocal technique, but I need to be learning my songs. grrr…. I really enjoyed watching two of my friends catch up with each other while I was working in the coffee shop, it gave me warm fuzzies. Ok, I think that’s all for now. Yes, I realize it’s fairly random, but that’s me right now at this moment, so there you go! (big huge smile) I love you all. Ohhhhh….. I get paid tomorrow! yippeeee. Alright, the first person to leave a comment on this blog gets a free dinner out with yours truly. I miss my habit of taking people out. I’ll have to reinstate it. Alright, I’m done, Goodnight!
music: Sausy Sailor by the Wailin’ Jennys~ very cool group, a new favorite www.thewailinjennys.com
When Love speaks to you, believe in him,
though his voice may shatter your dreams,
as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you, so shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth, so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and
caresses the tender branches that quiver in the sun,
so shall he descend to your roots
and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
~Kahlil Gibran
It’s been a wonderful day nothing in particular, well….. I guess the fact that Jesse and I have been dating for 3 months ( I can’t believe that’s all it’s been!) has contributed to my mood, but it’s also because I feel more in control of my emotions and life in general. I taught Jesse to merengue tonight fun times. C.S. Lewis is one of the best writers I’ve ever encountered, but I don’t agree with his thoughts on male headship (see Mere Christianity ch. christian marriage) eh, no one’s perfect 
My dad took this picture during their year to Nepal.
Taj Mahal~ did you know that there is supposed to be a black Taj Mahal, but that the king who was building it for himself was overthrown by his son who imprisioned him in a tower for the rest of his life? The Taj Mahal was made as the king’s wife’s tomb. 
music: Without You by the Dixie Chicks
“Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it’s what you are expected to give — which is everything.”
“We are all born for love. It is the principle of existence, and its only end.”
“Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.” ~ James Baldwin
“Where there is love there is life.” ~Gandhi
“You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her.”
music: Saucy Sailor by the Wailin’ Jennys
I’ve gotten some interesting responses to the “Can you love someone too much” question. If you want to check them out, see the comments under my sept 24th blog. I think both Katie and Sol have very valid points and I have to admit that I asked the question with an answer already rolling around in my head (surprisingly similar to my responses) but I wanted to see what people had to say about it. Actually the first time I asked it was in response to a pretty pessimistic mood, but then I reasked it because I wondered what people would actually say. I especially like what Sol said about loving your neighbor as yourself and how loving yourself is part of that, finding a balance. If you don’t take care of yourself, how can you help others. If you give and give and give so much that you are depleted, what good are you? It’s something that kind of hit me this summer. When I mentioned it to Jen’s dad, he talked about how we have a built in tendency for self care, and that with that mind set it would be easy to slip into selfishness, and I think that’s very true. But I think there’s a difference between selfishly loving yourself and allowing your ego, fears, desires, and/or instincts rule your decisions, and really loving yourself, like God does. In a smart, sometimes painful way. Sometimes God’s love hurts because it’s so backwards from what we are doing.
Today some very wonderful things have happened. Going to church was one of them, and catching (big huge smile for a phone call I just got!!!! [I have to interrupt this blog for two seconds and say that I'm dating a wonderful young man, if he can deal with me when my hormones are off balance, he can deal with anything ] ok, back to my day…..catching up with Mary my mentor, lunch with a couple from my church, a nice nap, some good girl time, a fun new game from Senegal, having a good catchup/ talk about faith session with Jen, and learning to pronounce the French in the new aria I’m working on. Umm…..and I actually got some homework done! It’s been a GOOD day! Sleep well everyone. Goodnight beautiful world.
music: I believe I can fly
Last night was very enjoyable. I love dancing! There’s just something about it that makes me really happy. I taught like 4 guys how to merengue….that was fun. I also learned how to bachata. I had seen it before, but hadn’t ever had it explained to me. Ummm…. the movement of dance just comes so naturally to me. And it makes me happy, and it’s good exercise…. yeah for dancing.
music: Elegy ~ Songs Without Words No. 40 performed by Jennifer W.
Yesterday was horrible! Why? because pain and I were on a first name basis all day long. Now when people encountered me it was very obvious that I was not alright, and when asked what was wrong there were times when I was at a loss as to how to respond. This is a common plight of mine (almost monthly). Why is it that I not only have to physically suffer because of my bodies makeup, but am put in socially uncomfortable situations. Why is a women’s cycle and the problems that go with such a taboo topic? Does anyone else see anything wrong with this? It’s not that I want to go out and announce it to everyone, but when I’m in so much pain I can’t hide it ( I have a very high pain threshold so that is significant) I hate the fact that I have to mince words. Of course with my girlfriends all I have to do is put my hand on my abdomen and grimace, but still. Ok, I’m done. One last thing… why was I not able to bring myself to actually say what I’m talking about?
I’m so excited about this weekend. Lots of fun things going on. Latin dance tonight, MCC relief sale tomorrow, Kick-off tomorrow night, and lunch with a family from Assembly on Sunday. Yippee
Terms you may not know:
Jennifer- my best friend from Oregon
MCC- Mennonite Central committee, they do alot of work overseas
relief sale- yearly action/ gathering where hundreds (thousands?) of Mennonites from the area come to spend money and time together. All proceeds go to MCC specifically for overseas missions I think
Kick-off- a big talent show at the beginning of each semester, one of the biggest student life events on campus
Assembly- Assembly Mennonite Church, my local church community
